Friday, June 27th

Boredom.

music: Wonder Pets!
mood: Enlightend.

Wow. I've been sort've busy recently. I worked 33 hours this week and I'll be working 30 hours next week. Plus it's my niece's first birthday and Abrianna's second 4th of July. This year we are going to be my nieces party, where her father is setting off around 1000 dollars in professional fireworks. I'm excited. Last year we just had the cheesy on the ground fountains. I spent 20 dollars on a few Wednesday, because I wanted to make sure that the noises weren't going to freak Abrianna out. She did beautifully and really loved the fireworks. They are posted on Abrianna's Photoblog.

Other then these things, boredom sets in and I have nothing to do. I've spent almost my whole pay check, which wasn't much this week, on things the baby needed. Plus clothes that she really didn't need but they were just to cute to pass up. I swear, the child has more clothes then any 18 month old I've ever meet. I joined a book club sort've thing. Where I can order books online and have them shipped. It let's me pay with a money order. Which of course I have to do. I've already read Blood Noir by Laurell K Hamilton, which is the latest book in her Anita Blake series. It's awesome. I'm working on Fearless Fourteen, the latest book in the Stephanie Plum series. It's turning out good so far, though I think Janet Evanovich has done better then this one. But who knows maybe it'll turn out better....


One last exciting piece of news that I saved for last....Abrianna now sleeps in her big girl princess bed. I'm so proud of her. She's doing beautifully. Now I just need to loose the bottle and get her outta diapers. And I'll be satisfied. Welp, I'm off to put her to bed and continue my reading. Hopefully everbody has a great weekend, and fourth of July. In case I don't make it back in time.
[Karma: -1 (+/-)] Cyn on 06.27.08 @ 06:43 PM EST [link] [0 comments]


Thursday, June 26th

Venting. (warning; cursing below)

mood: Pissed Off.

For those of you who are new to my blog, or just don't know I'm the single mother of the worlds most beautiful little girl. Her name is Abrianna Skye and she is my whole life. I have recently found out that her sperm donor got another girl pregnant. Of course the first thing that popped into my mind was, great another fatherless child, and another child for him to not support. But then I found out he was having a little boy. Now what pops into my head? Oh great, now my child will be the outcast. Fatherless, and this baby, strictly because of his gender, will be god in his Daddy's eyes.

It pisses me off so bad, because my daughter is amazing. She's smart and funny. And she's beautiful. Of course I am partial to her, but I still feel she deserves better then what her father is doing to her. Sometimes I feel as though I over compensate for him. I'm always buying her something new or taking her somewhere exciting because he doesn't do shit for her. So of course, I feel the need to triple what I would do if he did, to make up for his slack. What is really depressing to me is, I've always had a father. I've always known my Dad. And been extremly close to him as well. My Dad is honestly one of the greatest people of all time. And I wish my little girl could say the same thing about hers.

I guess in life there is a lot of roadblocks like these. And today is just going to be a depressing day. I want my little girl to have the best of everything. But what makes this baby, worth so much more then her. What makes this baby so much better then her. That he gets his daddy and Abrianna doesn't get hers. Why is my child the one that gets pushed off. It's not like she was born when he was that young. She's only 18 months old. He was 21 when she was born. Which is older then I was. crying I guess to sum up all of this, my daughter has an asshole for a father, and it sucks. angry, grr
[Karma: -1 (+/-)] Cyn on 06.26.08 @ 07:05 AM EST [link] [0 comments]


Monday, June 16th

Lightning Bugs

mood: Excited.

I'm going to be taking Abrianna outside tonight to catch lightning bugs for the first time. It was something I loved to do as a child, and I'm super excited to do it with her as well.

Sharing traditions is something that I throughly enjoy, and that I plan to uphold to a high standard. I'm also establishing a strict bedtime routine with her. It's important for her growth. I wish I would have realized this sooner, but now is better then never. Every night, we brush teeth, read a story, and say goodnight at bedtime. Oh, and of course we pick a disney movie to put in.

It's excited watching her grow. I never believed people when they said it, but it truly is like experiancing childhood all over again. Nobody will ever look at me like my daughter does, and that amazes me.
[Karma: 3 (+/-)] Cyn on 06.16.08 @ 06:16 PM EST [link] [0 comments]


Test.

music: silence.
mood: Aggravated.

I'm attempting to get my layout to work with greymatter. Whether or not it does has yet to be decided. Let's all just hope for the best. angry, grr

As for right now, this will have to do. I'm still trying to figure out how to get rid of the ugly border. For someone as knowledge retarded as me, I'm quite proud that I've gotten this far. Right now I'm going to take a break, I've a few other things that need attention. I'll come back to this at a later point.

If anybody knows how to fix my border issue, leave me a comment and let me know. I'd appreciate any and all help. smile

Ahem there is also the comment issue and my archive issue I've a lot of work ahead of me. crying And ignore my default emotes. They are on the list crazy
[Karma: -3 (+/-)] Cyn on 06.16.08 @ 12:52 PM EST [link] [0 comments]